When I woke up this morning I was angry. I don’t mean a bit pissed off, I mean Angry. I woke up at 6am and felt so agitated that I couldn’t go back to sleep. It’s been happening a lot since we moved into my in laws bungalow, I’m struggling to relax, feeling restless and distracted.
I’ve always thought I was pretty good at change. But it turns out moving house has really unsettled me. I like our bungalow, but seem to keep finding reasons to dislike it. I’m very grumpy and it’s because I’m unsettled, my furniture is temporary as we have new stuff arriving next week, and we have boxes everywhere waiting to be unpacked, all of my stuff, the things that make me happy, are all packed up in boxes and so my new bungalow just doesn’t feel like home.
The thing I think that’s bringing out this full on rage is that we don’t have a bath, we were promised a bath when we agreed to move in almost two months ago but for some reason it hasn’t materialised yet and it’s driving mad. I know it sounds crazy but I love baths, having a bath is part of my daily routine and a huge part of my wellbeing practice. I just can’t relax without being able to have a bath, and it’s turning me into a monster!
We’ve been on our bungalow for three weeks now and for one reason or another I haven’t been my super organised self and constant illness and lack of motivation has meant that there’s still unpacked boxes everywhere and our bungalow is in chaos.
So there you have it, the reason for my extreme bad mood recently. Anyway for the sake of my husband and my own sanity this morning I decided to do something about it.
Still ill and not feeling any more motivated I had to force myself to get off my arse and get to work. Today I unpacked all of my books and organised them on the various empty bookshelves in my living room, put some pictures up, ripped out the granny electric fire and replaced it with tile effect wallpaper for a much more modern feel, unpacked several boxes of stuff, and put it on display. put the tv on the wall in my bedroom and finally got my in laws (who are also my landlord) to order a bath!
Sometimes I wonder if I’m too materialistic but I don’t think I am, I just like to be surrounded by stuff I’m familiar with, memories, pictures, books, things that make me smile….