I’m so ready for my life to change,I think I’d make a really good mum, I mean I’d like the chance to try. I know suffering with anxiety will make it harder, and the fact that my mind becomes fragile if I don’t get the right balance will be hard with a child, I think sometimes People assume I wouldn’t cope but I know that’s not true, and we haven’t got any money, this worries me the most to be honest, but we will find a way, and I will try my best to be a fun, caring and free spirited mother if only I could have the chance. I think I have good values and morals in life and I could bring a child up to do good in the world. But I’m so scared that I won’t ever get the chance. Sometimes I feel sure that I can’t have children, but is that just paranoia? And is that paranoia and negativity stopping it from happening? A person could go crazy thinking about this stuff. Sometimes I’m not even sure if my husband wants children, or if he’s just going along with it to keep me happy, maybe he’s secretly hoping that we can’t and life can carry on as normal. If that’s the case, and he doesn’t want children and is lying to me, then will our relationship last? Should we have talked about his stuff earlier? I love him and wouldn’t stop loving him if he didn’t want children, but would I become resentful? I wonder what our child will look like and how they will sound, I wonder if I will feel differently as a mother and I wonder if I’ll ever have the chance to find out….